SEARCHIN' FOR STABLE - I COULD USE SOME LUCK (2003)

It ain't no coincidence--it's psychology...
Muthafuckas father told him he was an accident and they didn't want him--it impacted him awfully
'Sposed ta be my homeboy-now he robbin 'me?
Young people gettin' churned out with apathetic attitudes
When you don't care about life you don't really care about anything that happen ta you
If you hate yourself how can you be happy for others or show sincere gratitude?
When you be thinkin' that your own livin ' -conditions is the worst -like it's shot ta shit. ..
Think about the bitch who kidnapped her own kid...
Put a gun to his wig.
Cops shot the crazy lady but she lived.
Think about the innocence stripped from a child. ..
Like the two little girls who got raped and killed in The Green Mile
I apologize to you, the reader, if you're offended cuz your life is this wild.
Lotta shit is fucked up but gotta show thanks for the blessin's and the people around you who wear halos...
I should practice what I preach-tell my moms and pops I know they work hard for me so they know
Tell my grandparents, that for all the love and help, I'm not ungrateful.
Tell the "good" Americans that my observations are an attempt toward betterment.-this is the best-off
country but we got a long way ta go and these words are my contributions cuz I ain't castin' a "blank" vote.
Another day-doin' research ta reach my target...
Hungover-headache-rubbin' my head and face ta try ta wake up, I'm usually lathargic
I'm a FIGHTER but sometimes my heart's whipped.
I just don't understand shit...
And frankly, it's because the reasons that people give ain't legit...
Why keep "suicide watch" over a death-row inmate?--cuz they're imprisoned by hypocrites.
The State got ta have the satisfaction of killin ' GOD 'S kid.
Is there even a God?..
If so, why do different people differ in opinion on "right and wrong"?
If He's there, isn't He your conscience--do we really have "free will" and conscious thought?..
Or are we driven within' to do what HE wants?
I'm sicka muthafuckin ' BITCHES who whiten their teeth and tan. ..
Half these BITCHES got genitalia of"man"
But there ain't nothin' phony about a WOMAN or a MAN.
Some people say I'm Too Deep...
I think like this: If people didn't think, where would we be?
There's a reason for artists and poets--there's a reason for philosophy...
I just don't know what the reason be.

"Chinua Achebe, the great Nigerian novelist, teaches us that the poet and the king must never
become too friendly because the poet's job is to bear to the people unglad tidings the king would just as
soon nobody hears." -John Edgar Wideman from book--Live From Death Row by- Mumia Abu-Jamal

LORD PLEASE. ..!
I'm weak from repeatin' my pleas
Pacin'- "I'm a lost soul with nowhere ta go, I wanna be free"
Quote comes off the record of Hussein Fatal...
Mercy killin'~-shoulda cut my cable pre-natal
Now I'm here~-everyday searchin' for stable.