JUST BELIEVE (2002)

My eyes well up--why?
It's not my family--But it's the whole situation that got me outside at 4 in the mornin' lookin' at the sky
I get jarred--woke by my girl's desperate cry.
"My Cousin...She Didn't Make It "
I don't know what to say and I don't try to fake it
All I can do is drive her to her family--her best friend just passed in a crash and we on the Boulevard, I'm
hopin' WE make it.
You see-I'm self-centered and always lookin' for shit to have a connection to me...
Yesterday was the 17th anniversary of when my uncle died in a car wreck--I'm wonderin' if Stacy went on
that date or just recently in the wee...
Hours of this morning, but I would never say this to Dawn because this ain't about ME.
Gotta represent strength and support--how else can I play the role of a man?
Nothin' matters when I'm huggin' a mother who just lost her daughter--any tension there mighta been is on
the back bumer--just tryna lend a strong hand...
All things happen for a reason--GOD knows but I really don't understand
18-years-old-She was headed for college within' a couple weeks
WHY GOD?
HE tells me-- "Just Believe"
You can spread knowledge but chu Must Receive.
Pray to find your Way--take it or leave it cuz I don't wanna preach.
There's always someone else worse off--kids in foster homes
Don't bottle shit up--Fuck censorship, speak right off the dome
Children cuttin' their wrists-is this an inspirational or an awful poem?
Another question that I CAN'T FUCKlN' HELP YOU WITH.
In a room with folks who don't mean shit to me but at a time like this my heart ain't stiff
I'm tryin' not ta eye muthafuckas--I'm just starin' at the ceilin' fan as it quickly spins and ticks...
And what good would bein' suicidal do?
That would just create more bullshit for your loved ones to go through
Gotta keep your head up and pull through.
As I just seen--never know when the Lord's gonna pull you.
Girl was unidentifiable
Death is like the only thing that's reliable
Her brother survived the accident--bet he's wonderin', "Why did I pull through?"
Rumors say they was both seatbelted. ..
And both ejected...
Hope it was so quick that she never felt it.
That was it--she had a scholarship and mad awards for things--God decided that was all she needed
He took her cuz she had already succeeded
We all wish drama would cease but in life that's one of many things that's constantly repeated.

In Memory of
Stacy Stott
8/25/02